Week 24 - Curiosity


How many of us are truly curious about life?
How many of us are still looking around the world with awe and wonder?

Or have we all gotten to the point where we are trying to desperately to prove all the time how much we “know” and we find ourselves cut off from this great gift?

Children are infinitely curious.
They have no attachment to knowing anything. And why would they?
They only just arrived?
But so have we.
To every new moment.
We have only just arrived.
To every new casting office.
To every new set.
To every new story.

Why do we begin to assume we know anything about it?
Especially when acting in this way cuts us off from creativities biggest gift for us.

I can’t tell you how many times I watched myself or other actors on set act like they understood when someone said something like, “Let’s strike the Gary Coleman and move the Furnie before Last Man.”

A bunch of actors nodding agreeably.
No one has a sweet clue what is happening.
No one wants to look like the amateur who asks.
But here is how life works...
If you don’t ask, you don’t ever get any more information than what you already have.

What is worse?
Looking amateur or being amateur...

Liz says that we often glorify PASSION leaving the gift and power of curiosity in the dust. And curiosity is the Big Magic. It is the secret. It’s the Big Apple.

The thing about curiosity is it is far less sexy than passion.
Less sexy but more loyal.
Less sexy but it will never make you feel less than or not enough. All curiosity every wants from you is you to be in dialog with it. You don’t even have to get it right,
You just have to ask questions.

It may feel less glamorous. But it will never feel less interesting.

The whole point is to say, “what am I interested in right now?”
Learning to answer the call of your true desires is the beginning of authenticity, and then the beginning of your art.

Too often we are disinterested in our own wants and desires, too focused on what someone else may want, like or be interested in.

Being in relationship with our creative impulse of curiosity is the beginning of true self care.

“You might spend your whole life following your curiosity and have absolutely nothing to show for it at the end — except one thing. You will have the satisfaction of knowing that you passed your entire existence in devotion to the noble human virtue of inquisitiveness.”

Infinite curiosity will lead you down roads your mind could never imagine taking you down. And do yourself the favor of not making it linear.

You don’t have to ONLY be curious about acting or the arts.

You might be interested in learning to make sushi, or flower arranging, or foreign languages, or the origin of herbal remedies. You cannot imagine now where that curiosity is taking you. But don’t forget...IT knows.

That spark of creativity that is filling you with wonder and curiosity does not come from THIS MOMENT, it comes from beyond time and space — from EVERY MOMENT — from your future even. It knows. It is giving you a gift.

Try accepting it.

PS. HUGE bonus points for ANYONE who stopped reading this half way through to ask me what a Gary Coleman or Furnie or Last Man is. Bravo.


Jen Rudolph